The Goings on in Corey's Head

12:14am: I miss you
So don't take me too seriously with this, but...

Do you ever look at yourself? Not in the mirror, but in your head. Do you ever look at yourself and you're just disappointed in where you are?

So I didn't make the music theater program again...but...I'm realizing that I'm okay with that. I have done a lot of thinking on the subject. Next fall, I'm going to audition one more time, but also...I'm interviewing for the costume technology program. I haven't told you guys this, but I've become something of a prodigy in the costume shop with my sewing ability. So, I made some flipping amazing dresses for titanic. I kind of discovered this passion I have for making clothing. I guess it was born from project runway and seeing Becca and Jess make those clothes.

In doing this, I'll be near the theater I love and have the chance to take part in it. I am by no means saying I'm giving up on my dream. It's just not exactly as planned.

I WILL MAKE IT

10:04am: Breakups...
...aren't as bad as I imagined. We're actually probably better off this way. But it's gonna be a tough adjustment. I'll miss laying next to him at night. I'll miss him touching me. I'll miss him calling me his bunny. It's gonna be...tough. But I think I'm happy.

2:35pm: Altar Boyz
So I got called back for Mark: The Gay One. It's a stretch, but I can try. Callbacks were last night from 5pm - 10pm. We'll see. I find out tonight around 5:30, 4:30 for you back at home. Keep me in your thoughts. I did really well.

Dancing: I pretty much owned that one. Everyone else was paled in comparison. :)

Rapping: Uh...what...uh...uh...my bitches...yeah I sucked.

Singing: There were only three guys that could even hit the high B we had to hit. One of them, Brian Cronon, can't act that well, but I dunno. The other, Andrew Alber, already has a big role in Titanic. He's gonna be my competition for the rest of my life. I know it. The other was me of course.

Acting: I think I was decent. We'll see.

8:17pm: I might be quiting LJ.

www.vox.com

Just give it a try.

7:39pm: I had the oddest dream ever last night...
So Becca and I were walking around Wenatchee, and we decided to go to some yard sales. We found one and I was shopping around with a wicker basket. Becca looked at me all jealously:

"I've been wanting to buy a yard sale basket forever! Except I want one that would be good for holding meat" Said Becca.

I pointed out a perfect basket that had three drawers in it and one was labeled clearly: MEAT.

"Look, Becca! It's PERFECT!"

And Becca picked it up and nodded, then proceeded in setting it down and moving on. I moved on as well, carrying my basket. I saw some really yummy burritos and bought two of them in exchange for my shirt. I began nibbling on one, and it was sooooo delicious. Becca ran over:

"OH MY GOD! NO WAY!!!!!!" And proceeded in buying the last one.

Becca and I left the yard sale eating burritos and I carried my basket with my extra burrito under my arm.




So yeah...that was the dream. I remember it so vividly, but the burritos stood out. The inside looked like it had paper in it or something. It was weird. Delicious and weird.

11:23pm: I've been loving hanging out with you guys. It's just a good feeling to be able to share memories and inside things that only we have. I'm sad that it's coming to an end, but I will see you all again sometime. I love everyone, and you each know who you are. If not, I love you too! Hehe.

2:23am: I'm home.
Only...it's like two homes. I have a home waiting in Colorado too. So many other people that care about me, and that I care about too.

I can't wait to see all of you. I will be at the school tomorrow. I miss you and love you all.

9:08pm: Guys. This really made me nostalgic. Jessie...can you see any of our icelandic friends?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_gtDqUqDVv4

2:52am: Didn't get cast. Not in the show at all.

I'm not horribly disappointed. I mean, I got noticed at least. I mean they saw me, and they heard me, and saw something they liked. Unfortunately, this director has a habit of giving cute boys who will sleep with him the lead roles, but, meh. There will be more.

Thanks for the support though! Love you guys.

11:42am: Omycrap! I got called back. I got called back for a UNC musical. Do you have any idea what that means? They noticed me. I don't care if I get it, or if I get chorus, but they noticed me. I made an impression. There's 11 male roles, and I got the lowest of lead roles, but hey, it's a lead! Bellboy! It sounds lame, but it actually is quite an accomplishment. Trust me. This is the most competitive program i've ever been in. I have no idea how my callback went, it was just too fast, but I think I represented my ability well.

Wish me luck. I find out if i get it tomorrow.

Please cross your fingers like all day or something.

2:59am: Laura. Lacey.

Gah. Another bunch at one time! So much happiness. I didn't expect. Guys, I love you. I promise to write back as soon as I can. Thanks for making the time to write me when I'm being such a bum.

Dance auditions for Titanic were tonight. PAIRS AUDITIONS. GAH. My partner was alright, but I was honestly better than her. I hope she's better tomorrow night when we have to perform the routine. I also have to sing my little diddy tomorrow. Oh gosh. I'm more nervous than I need to be.

Bye for now.

10:40pm: I love you all. Thank you.
Jess. Eoin. Jessie.

Thank you both so much. I really love you so much. Your letters and drawings are up on my wall. I can see them right now. I feel so close to home when I look at them. Expect letters once auditions for Titanic are over. I'm so busy, but I'll make time. Promise.

3:42am: So Bush came to Greeley today. It's kind of like him coming to Wenatchee back home.

I stood outside protesting cause he was promoting a useless tool anti-gay republican named Maralyn Musgrave for Congress. I was wearing a t-shirt promoting our democrat running: Angie Paccione. It was awesome. They had mounties...Bush mounties. They were pushing back the crowd to avoid a riot. Things looked like they might have turned violent, but they were pretty much awesome.

My favorite. "Tell me what democracy looks like....WE ARE WHAT DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE!"

Also "1234, we don't want your bloody war. 5678, stop the violence, stop the hate."

Other things to be voted for here are a domestic partnership bill: Referendum I. It's counter one: Amendment 43 defines marraige as a union between a man and a woman. Fuck that shit.

I've gotten a lot more political since i got here. Yay for being an educated voter.

6:32pm: *AHEM*
542 McCowen Hall
Greeley, CO. 80631

I just feel really disconnected. Anything would help me. I miss home and all of you a lot.

12:05am: I really miss home. It's hard, and more than a little scary. I'm so far. It's just so...disconnected. I want to be able to hug someone I've known for more than two months. I'm making amazing friends. Oh, geez, what amazing friends. I've established some relationships that will last my whole life already, but still, I want the first ones back...

If any of you get on facebook...secretly add yourself to the N. Colorado network, and check out my friends.

David Hosanna
Brian Rose
Jake Holt
Alex Wadle
Steffan Scrogan
Linden Majack
Emily Davis
Ashley Muffin Hoeprich
Michelle Payler
Austin Nielson
Greg Rageth
Joey Taylor
Jacob Thompson
Sam Waters
Cody Yager
Adam Akers
Kathleen Cummings
Jimmy Gatliff

Just to name a few. They're amazing. They keep me grounded here.

10:22pm: I'm not used to being liked by more than one person.

David

Brian

David

Brian

ARGHH!!!

I love David so much. He's amazing. It's almost inexplainable. He makes me happy to just be near him. I could just look at him all day. He's sooo smart too. I love everything about him.

Brian likes me a lot. I have no idea what I did to make him like me, but he's dead set. He's amazing too, but I'm already focusing on one boy. Falling in love with two people would be quite conflicting for me...

Ahhhh. I want to be with David...but it's too hard with him being Steffan's roommate. But when he looks at me...I'm hypnotized.

We'll see.

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1:13pm: Okay...in case you missed it last time...

542 McCowen Hall
Greeley, Co. 80631

gimme yours and I'll send you happiness too!

11:34pm: Update
Mind 100: 98%
Orientation to Stage Technology: 95%
Intro to Lit: 91%
Acting: 100%
Geography: 98%

Midterms are going well.

I'm going to a gay club for the third time in my life tonight. Tracks: Denver is sooooo nice. We met a guy from Real World: Denver there. I wonder if I'll be a blurry face in the club?

All my friends drink. All my friends smoke. All my friends do drugs. Okay. I'm exagerrating. But a lot of my friends do these things, and i party with them. I refuse. They respect that. I'm so happy that I can retain my morals amidst all this craziness. My friend Hannah said something really amazing at the party last night.

"We all get high and drunk so we can be like Corey is all the time! Don't worry at all about it, Bud!"

She actually said that cause a guy slipped me a drink and i sipped it and handed it back saying: "That has liquor in it. Get it out of my face." I will never change myself for people, and part of who I am is not smoking and drinking.

I did give slightly because hookah is totally fine. It's just steam from water with tobacco in it. It's fun and very social. i have fun with it, and it's big here. There's hookah bars everywhere...not in Greeley, there's a law angainst it here. I'm having fun and being safe.

So tonight i'm going to a place where people drink, do drugs, have sex in the bathroom, but I'm just gonna have fun. I have people with me that are very protective of me, so don't worry. I'll be fine.

11:10pm: I think I may have fallen in love...this is different than Steffan. With him it was never love. It was more admiration. David...is fun. He's exciting and new and more than i ever thought i'd get. I like him...A LOT.

Please don't think I'm jumping from guy to guy. Please understand that college has just opened a lot of options for me.

I really hope that I mean what I'm saying. Cause I feel it, but I've been known to follow the wrong feeling...


Wanna see?

http://unco.facebook.com/profile.php?id=42100767

3:54pm: Had a great weekend. Went and saw Servant of Two Masters. It was amazing, and my friend Teya from Washington was fantastic as a gross hag.

Went to a surhero/villain party with the music theater kids. Dressed up as Luigi and my buddy David came as Mario. We bought red and green caps at goodwill as well as overalls, then wore long sleeved green and red shirts. The worst part was the mustaches. We used spirit gum. fun day. Made lots of friends. Poison Ivy wanted my penis...in her. As did Pussy Galore. As did Wonder Woman...and Rogue...nevermind. Lots of women wanted me...so Mario and I made it known that we were gay for eachother...lol. many girls pouted then we danced.

Then the cops came and I laughed at all the underage drinkers freaking out. Hehe. I just sat with Mario and laughed like Luigi.

"Oooh hoo hoo! Itsa lotsa drunk kidsa! Lucky fora mea, I don'ta drink!"

1:20pm: So yeah, Jessie made me remember something.

This previous weekend, some friends took me to Oktoberfest. I warned them that I would complain about the non-authentic German-ness, and I did.

They had plastic beer Schteins. The fudge was gross and melty. The music was LAAAAME. And so what did we do? Me, David, and Jake bought ninja swords and had a German ninja fight. It was HardXCore. We win.

That night we went on an adventure at midnight and then did the whole adventure in reverse till we got home.

I love it here.

Oh and if you didn't know, Steffan and I broke up. Nothing momentous, we just didn't work and we both knew it.

EDIT: 2:34 I added a facebook album of my dorm room. Check it out.

3:57pm: WASTED WEDNESDAY!!!

Too bad I don't drink and I'm going tango dancing instead.

8:27pm: I just had a family dinner here with my new family in Colorado. Here is the fam:

David: The mommy
Muffin: The daddy
Alex: My sissy
Steffan: creepy uncle
Me: baby
Patrick: DISTANT cousin
Kathleen: cousin's woman/bitch

Yeah. I love my disfunctional family!


Oh and we had chicken.

10:40pm: hi, guys.

I'm typing this while wearing a condom on my right arm.

Vanessa, Jessie. Now we can all have hand sex safely.